Feel the beat, breathe the rhythm. Know within that all is forgiven. Release the tension, dance and sing, fill the air with dynamic flare. Bathe in the energy of tone and tempo, as vibes of joy begin to flow. Transport your mind along the wave as it washes through you with every bass. Draw upon the spirit of the drum, and soon you will be joined by the ancient ones. 💖
This is the big question…
Who are you when you are not being who others expect you to be?
Who do you become when others see that you are human, with all your failings and achievements?
Who do you become when you look in the mirror?
Who are you being when you interact with a stranger for the first time?
Who is the one being when you be?
Do you feel safe to simply be? To show YOU in all your colours?
Do you fear that others will judge or walk away if you truly step into being all of you, all of the time, 7 days a week?
Are those same people truly being all they can be?
Too often we change or adapt our true selves to fit in the boxes society puts us in, stamped and labelled for the world to see.
I say to you, step out of the box, wear it as a hat if you must till you feel comfortable being fully exposed and naked, but remove the label and replace it with, this is ME!
Then throw that box in the recycle bin and step into a new confidant you, the you you were always meant to be.
Shine your light so brightly that those pretending to be, have to close the lid on their boxes and those that are removing theirs can see they are not alone.
To be yourself in a world filled with pain is the bravest thing you can be.
Love you, all of you. No excuses, no blame, no regret, no shame.
Do not worry about those who fall away, one day they too shall remove their boxes of shame and find themselves once again.
Be the change by BEING your authentic self and loving every aspect of your magnificent, flawed, vibrant, unique self.
The world needs more honest communication and that starts with the conversation with self.
Mountains rise reaching to the sky but below the eye they touch the heart of our mother. Holding her flesh together like her bones.
The trees reach towards the sun, their roots travelling deep, far and wide, securing it’s magnificence to the surface. Like sinews holding everything in place.
The waters flow from the heavens, permeating deep to replenish under ground streams. Like the blood flowing through our veins.
Thunder booms in the sky while lighting hits the ground with a jolt so strong it can power a car. Like the force of the pump that beats our heart.
The wind blows from all directions, sometimes soft, sometimes hard. Blowing up tyres and sailing boats. Filling our lungs and bringing us life.
Oil comes up from the deepest parts and travels around our mother, clearing, lubricating. Like the blood pumping our heart.
The grass grows long, or short, dancing in the breeze, like a beacon for passers by, absorbing the dew and offering shade. As our hair, connecting us to heaven and earth as a natural antenna and umbrella.
These are but a few ways of how we are all connected with nature, with each other.
As above so below, as without so within.
What we do to our planet we do to ourselves and vice versa.
Is your body your temple? Or Is the mountain? If you revere only one, then life is out of balance. For without one there is no other.
Take time to observe nature today and see how she is a reflection of you.
What can you change within yourself to change what you see out in the world?
Take action today, tomorrow is not guaranteed.
Throughout my life I have been told that I’m too kind, generous and selfless. Like it’s a bad thing. They say I should think about myself more and be less giving because people take advantage and don’t care about me or help me when they can.
Now this may be true, but, that just shows who they are as people, and is not a reflection on me.
I just give people enough rope to hang themselves with then walk away.
If I have helped someone regardless of how they disrespect or disregard me, my heart is full knowing I did all I could with what I had to work with.
From what I can see in the world today, too many people only help if there is something in it for themselves. They become hardened by all the ungrateful, disrespect from their efforts to lead by example. Or simply are out for all they can get.
How then is the world meant to change? Or as I hear and say all too often, ‘go back to how it used to be’?
We must not become bitter at the unrecognition, the rejection, the disrespect, the lies and false promises. Nor succumb to the feelings of isolation that these people ignite within us.
We must recognize the gift they bring, the awareness of your own inner strength that in spite of others ignorance you have the ability to forgive the wounded child in front of you and love them anyway.
We the way showers may have chosen a difficult path but we must continue to hold the lantern up in the dark, so that others of like mind can find us. If we succumb to the darkness of our ego self then we will be lost forever in the sea of lost souls.
What if we had the power to change the story, and with this awareness, change the world?
This week I have been sitting with the element of air.
Totem: Eagle + Condor.
Air correlates to the Eastern part of creation. It represents the vital breath from the winds that brought the Universe into being, with the breath of life (Om).
Air is also connected to the mind, wisdom, spirits and the soul.
When we create a prayer ceremony, using fire, breath work or spoken word, our prayers are carried up to creator on the winds.
Air or breath is the life giver to all life on our planet, it breathes in life and exhales it in death.
When we breathe in we are inhaling oxygen that may have travelled around the world and through thousands of other beings. And when we exhale we pass that breath along. We share this same breath with the trees as we do with the critters, It connects us all together.
If you connect to the breeze you may hear their stories, or feel them as you breathe.
There are many breath work techniques that can help with various things from anxiety to asthma to restful sleep, all help to move stagnant air out and refuel you with a fresh supply of oxygen.
Eagle and Condor, both welcome in the new day soaring on the wind, they bring in new opportunities, growth and inspiration.
When we open up to them we begin to float on the breeze, becoming one with the air that surrounds us and within us. Then we begin to comprehend this element at a deeper level.
May the winds of our Ancestors blow softly in your ear today.
Yesterday, while walking I was thinking about how we ‘feed’ our earthly bodies to provide it with fuel, vitamins and minerals to keep it healthy, and how we exercise it to keep it strong and functional. We know that if we slack off in any of these areas, then our bodies will deteriorate and illness will set it.
So what then of the other part of our bodies that we may not be aware of, such as our emotional, Mental and spiritual body, our Soul?
Though most may feel it is a separate entity and in a way it is, however, when in this earthly vehicle it is intimately woven into every fibre of our being, it is after all the life force that pumps our heart and lungs, in affect giving us life.
Our Spiritual or Etherical bodies then, also require the same mindful attention that we give our physical bodies. We must feed them, care for them, exercise them daily to maintain a healthy self.
How do we do this, when time for most people is an issue, how can we fit 5 more self care things to our daily routine ?
What are our 5 a day supplements for the soul?
Deprogramming our mental body creates a ripple affect throughout all of our spiritual and physical bodies, so it makes sense to focus there at the source. We do this by changing how we think and we do that by changing the language we use about our stories and in our daily conversations.
Daily Affirmations have been proven to bring about sustainable changes in peoples thinking which in turn changes how they feel about things and brings about physical healing as they release old programming and free up the energy blocks that held them in the loop of pain.
In my FB group I post a daily affirmation which many have commented on how they help them, but, is one affirmation a day enough to break down stubborn blocks?
Some people struggle with affirmations if it is too far out of their belief, for example: For someone who struggles with weight issues, repeating, ‘ I am slender and healthy’, when they can see/feel this is not so and far away from their ultimate goal, may not bring about results as they desire as their ego mind will step in with doubt. By changing the wording slightly to, ‘I choose to make healthy choices daily’, we can appease the ego and changes begin to occur, confidence builds and before you know it the original mantra comes into play.
One of my favourite sayings around affirmations is, ‘Fake it till you make it’. Like with all programming, the more you are subjected to its vibration the more it embeds and overwrites the old programme.
Positive quotes have the same affect in a more subtle way, metaphor brings a sense of awareness without the ego going into defence mode.
Why not fast track, take that hose and super blast those neurons clean with 5 affirmations or positive quotes that stir your soul to reach its highest potential?
Here are 5 affirmations to try.
And here are 5 Quotes to try
“There are two ways of spreading light: to be the candle, or the mirror that reflects it.” – Edith Wharton
“With everything that has happened to you, you can either feel sorry for yourself or treat what has happened as a gift. Everything is either an opportunity to grow or an obstacle to keep you from growing. You get to choose.” – Dr. Wayne W Dyer
“Today is a new beginning, a chance to turn your failures into achievements & your sorrows into so goods. No room for excuses.” – Joel Brown
“An attitude of positive expectation is the mark of the superior personality.” – Brian Tracy
“We are all here for some special reason. Stop being a prisoner of your past. Become the architect of your future.” – Robin Sharma
As you read through these affirmations and quotes, sit with each one, repeat it out loud and inwardly. How does it feel? What are your thoughts, feelings, memories, hopes?
What is your favourite affirmation or quote?
With Autumn comes the shedding of the old, to feast on its bounty and to prepare for new growth in the spring.
May the Equinoxal tides carry you towards the shore of your highest potential.
So today while walking Loui and not thinking about anything in particular, other than finding Dandelion leaves for my rabbit. I got the words…’Riding the Waves’ and I thought to myself, ‘Think I wrote a blog with that title quite recently?’
This is what I wrote: ‘When the still calm waters begin to stir, grab your wet suit and prepare to ride the wave as it carries you to the golden shore’.
So as I’m walking along having an inner dialogue with myself, the scene of huge waves crashing onto a beach was constantly playing in my vision…this is how it kinda went…
I asked, Q. ‘if the blog post had come to mind as I needed to reread it for some reason?’
A. ‘No, but it will not hurt to read it again’
Q. Ok, then back to Riding the wave?
A. Watch the wave, what is your first thought?
A/Q . It is a metaphor for the turbulent peaks and troughs that life hurls at us.?
Q. Hmmm, that does not ‘feel’ right?
A. Watch the wave again from a different angle.
Going back into the scene fully, I viewed the sea/beach from above and this time I could see a surfer appear from under the huge wave. I watched as he weaved his way to the top and rode it all the way to the shore.
Q. I asked how come I did not see the surfer before?
A. If we look through the same lens eventually we are blinded to all other views.
Q. Yes, I get that, so what am I missing here?
A. Look again, rewrite the metaphor.
So again, I went back into the scene, looking at it from above. This time I saw that riding the wave did not necessarily mean ‘grin and bare it’, or, that being on top of the wave means a ‘good’ period in time/life, compared to the downward spiral.
This time I was on the surf board, surfing the waves from far out into the sea, and I saw it as a blessing. Those thunderous waves that rise up from the belly of the ocean have the power to drag us under yes, BUT, they also carry us to shore.
Our emotions (sea) are the catalyst to change, life is turbulent, with each passing age we undergo physical, emotional and psychological changes, we are made up of 65% water, so it is in our physiology to undergo the power of the tides, our outer life may have some bearing on this but even those who seem to ‘have it all’ still suffer the same inner emotional turmoil’s.
The wave is not the enemy to be conquered, but, if we allow it, it carries us forward. With each swell moving us away from the past and closer to the serene and stable shore.
When our toes finally feel the sand beneath them, the ride there suddenly becomes lost as we engage in the new senses and emotions new adventures that being on solid ground brings.
Give thanks for the ride, each dip, each ripple, each magical moment, that brought you back home, to yourself.
Apologies for the long post and the delay in getting it up, life takes over at times.
On Monday the 18th July, the weather reports were predicting that on Tuesday the day of the Full Moon, that temperatures would soar in to the 30’s, just for one day. The following day thunderstorms were predicted.
So I packed up the car and Tuesday morning, we headed to my favourite camping spot in Derbyshire, only 20mins away from my sacred place, Lawrencefield. 🙂
As with every visit to Lawrencefield, it was a journey of self awareness, healing and love.
My plan was to get up at Dawn so that I could enjoy a full un-rushed day, in the very welcome sunshine at my spiritual paradise. However, I was late waking up after a restless night and we set off at 10.50am, as it is only a 90min drive, I was glad that I would still get most of the day there and with the lighter nights it made up for missing the morning. 🙂
About 30 mins away from Castelton, the road was blocked and a diversion set in place, I thought ‘great, here we go again’ lol…The road took us in the opposite direction of where we needed to be and eventually brought us out in some suburb of Sheffield, we were lost.
I found a grassed area with a newsagents and pulled over to let Loui out for a stretch and get us some water to cool down. Then set up the sat nav on my phone, we were only 40mins away, so we had not strayed too far off the path and had seen parts of Derbyshire we would have missed otherwise. 🙂
No matter how many times I have driven through Winnats Pass, it still gives me butterflies in my tummy when I see it, its pretty impressive.
The entrance to the camp site at Rowter Farm.
I always get a tingle when pulling into the drive up to the farm, I have been going for so many years now it feels like a home from home and especially nice as the owner recognises me and always speaks. I have also watched her kids grow up into beautiful young ladies too.
I was pleasantly surprised to find it relatively empty seen as we are in the school holiday season, so I had plenty of choice as to where to pitch up. 🙂
After getting pitched and making a cuppa, I had an hour soaking up the sun while reading my book, the temperature was up in 30’s, bliss. 🙂
Rather than risk not getting to Lawrencefield the next day due to the fore casted thunder storm, I packed my rucksack and we headed to my sacred place to enjoy the rest of the day.
Loui paying his respects to the tree 🙂
After paying our respects and setting intentions at the gateway (Tree) we headed onto the pond so Loui could get a drink. On the way we came across a sheep with her lamb, who was very curious and came within millimetres of me being able to stroke her, I could feel her breath on my hands but loui posed too much of a threat even though I had him behind me on a very short lead. She followed us for quite a while then mum called her back.
We got to the main rock face and was pleasantly surprised to see it quiet, with only a couple of people climbing. Two elderly gentlemen who loved Loui and chatted for quite a while, while Loui was cooling down in the water.
Then we headed off through the silver birch to connect with nature and find a place to meditate. We visited another of my portal places and after being disturbed by walkers, we headed off to find another spot. On the way I thought I saw a huge Hare, but on closer inspection it was a tree stump. lol
We walked right to the end of the pathway before it heads down deeper into the valley.
Then I came across a beautiful twin silver birch that called me to connect with it. The left side the tree had grown in two and looked like a twin flame, on the right side it had grown off on its own into a beautiful curved branch. I embraced this like reconnecting with an old friend and spent 15 mins with my head on it and arms wrapped around it.
Amazing, I cant even put it into words but I could hear/feel it breathing, I was shown symbols, colours and went dizzy like I had taken a psychedelic. Then I was carried on a gust of wind along with the trees breath, to a place of no place, just colours and energy. The tree and I were breathing as one, magical. It was beautiful, I felt so at peace and then all of a sudden I was back with the tree and Loui was patiently waiting for me to continue our adventure.
We headed back towards the pond, still in a semi trance state when we found a pretty spot that looked like a good place to sit and meditate in the sun.
We sat here a while just absorbing the serenity and listening to the whispers on the wind. It was so peaceful I took a little video to share it with you: Thunder Moon Pilgrimage.
It was getting quite late so we headed back to the car, via the pond for Loui to cool off again. Then as we headed to the pathway out, the Lamb appeared again and seemed quite distressed. She had lost her mum and was bleating for her, so I told her we would help find mum and she followed us along the path. Then her mum called back, she was foraging deep in the ferns. Mum and Baby reunited, we headed to the Gateway (tree) to give thanks for the days gifts.
It was around 6.30 when we got back to camp, so I got straight on with making tea. While that was cooking I packed up my sage, notebook, pen and rattles ready to do ceremony under the moon later.
The Sun was making its decent and soon the moon arose above the farmhouse.
It was around 9.30pm when we set off along the public footpath behind the farm, that leads deep into the wilderness of Derbyshire.
As I was walking I was in awe of the moon, worried about it getting so dark so quickly and the walk back in the pitch black and also wondering where the best place to go would be. (monkey mind) Then I saw this. A reminder to stay centred.
Shortly after I heard, ‘go to the crossroads’. Which was a relief as it was not too far away from the camp site, maybe a mile. It was fairly cloudy so I didn’t manage to get a good shot of the moon other than it when it rose over the farmhouse earlier. None worth sharing anyhow. I got to the end of the lane, the crossroads, I lit a candle and sage honouring the directions and began to write out my affirmation whilst singing and whistling my creation song. I burnt the piece of paper asking for my prayers to be carried to creator on the smoke, then closed ceremony and gathered my things.
When I looked up, all the cows in the field had come close up to the wall to see what this crazy lady was doing out here at dusk. So I waved some sage over in their direction to bless them too and gave thanks for their presence in our ceremony.
We made our way back walking into the setting sun, it was a beautiful way to end the day.
I didn’t sleep well, the ground was uncomfortable (I forgot my blow up bed) and it was quite cold in the night. I took this picture of the moon as it was shining through my tent at 3am.
By 4.45am I figured I was not going to sleep, so I got up just in time to snap the sunrise before my phone died.
After grabbing a quick cup of tea we headed off for a walk. Something made me go Right out of the camp grounds, which leads onto the road. Normally I go left, down where I went the night before. But this time, I felt I should explore new ground. Unfortunately, I had no camera, so will have to go back and do it again to capture how amazingly beautiful it was.
When we got to the road I could see off in the distance a copse of woods, so we headed towards that after saying hello to the cows and calf’s there.
When we got to the woods it was fenced off and there was a sign for Mam Tor. Well, id never heard of it so off we ventured to climb a mountain. It was hard going especially with my back and Loui pulling my arm out trying to get the sheep! I nearly gave up a couple of times but from somewhere I decided I was going to make it, bad back or not!
The view from the top was breath taking!! I so wish I had a camera with me. We sat on the edge watching the sunlight illuminate all the colours on the hillside as it emerged from behind the clouds, the different shades of greens, like waves on the ocean.
As I sat there, I pondered on the weekend and realised that though it felt like I was in the moment and enjoying what this place had to offer, I really was not fully in the moment or appreciative for what I had experienced.
At Lawrencefield, I had that amazing experience with the tree, yet I was still looking for somewhere to meditate, but it didn’t happen, I couldn’t settle. Then, when I saw the copse of trees today my first thought was to see if I could finally meditate, but that didn’t happen either as the trees were blocked off!
So as I sat there on the top of Mam Tor, I began to see a pattern in my life, of how sometimes things never seem/feel enough or good enough, of my perfectionism and general dissatisfaction with what I am presented with if it does not match my expectations.
Wow, I felt like I had taken 100 step backwards on my spiritual path. Here is something I wrote about expectations, years ago: https://mariawindtalker.wordpress.com/2013/03/27/expectations-2/
I gave thanks for this realisation that I had somehow slipped back into this place of no place where nothing can move beyond until the block has been recognised and released. Then reconnected to the tree at Lawrencefield to fully appreciate the the vision/experience I had there and to give thanks from a soul level not just a mind one!
When we got back to the camp site I headed to the wash rooms to clean up and there was a lady in there doing the same. Seeing my rucksack, she asked if I was heading out for the day, I told her that we had just got back from Mam Tor and she replied,
‘We did that on our first day and I am still recovering four days later’.
This made me smile inside, like I had really accomplished something by getting up there, and I did, in more ways than one. 🙂