What to do…

What to do when the thoughts won’t stop rolling round in your head.

Things they said make you feel used, unappreciated, unheard and disregarded like your life has been wasted on always putting their happiness ahead.

What to do, to change this bed self made of love and care, that is a constant source of pain and despair.

What to do when knowing that you will never feel safe and secure in all your years that lay ahead. Because you sacrificed your security for theirs instead.

What to do when you long for the cold darkness of death to relieve you of the nightmare, of the pain they cause without care.

What to do when to some your just a cash cow, and to others a figure head.

What to do when you can no longer go on with this fight in your mind and the tear in your heart, with no needle or thread.

What to do when they don’t see That their selfish actions will be the death of you.

What to do. I implore to the stars as I sit here another night heartbroke covered in scars.

Even they have no answer, in shock and ashamed at the cold hearted soul who refuses any blame.

In despair I say OK, let them have their way, but take me home and make me whole again.

Moments Make Memories

Moments Make Memories

Been awake since 4am…still amazes me the amount of traffic at that time on the motorway. I mean it makes sense to work early morning because its too hot by 8am but seriously what jobs are they going to? what time do they finish? and are they asleep by 7pm every night to be on the road by 4am?

Not sure who has it worse those who’s body clocks are working on WTF? all the time to earn money to pay for stuff they never see, or, people like me who barely get by financially but get to enjoy watching the stars from my bed or from my hammock, get to spend time with nature with my fur-babies to play, dance create and live in the moment.

Its a funny old world, as programmed beings we are expected to follow a certain pattern and when life kicks you off the hamster wheel and stops you from getting back on it, people judge you without knowing your situation fully and even then some still sit in judgement.

What I have come to realise in the past 7yrs that I have been ill and out of work, is that neither scenario brings 100% happiness or contentment. Everything is in balance, equal opposites, there can be no light without dark. Our task no matter what life throws at us is to ‘Acknowledge’ those moments that lift our hearts, that switch our brains off from the struggles in our life, in the world and fully appreciate them. Because those moments no matter how fleeting are the reason we are alive. When we die, we wont be recalling the day we earn’t X amount of money on that one job, or buying that cinema screen size TV that we never get time to watch. We will remember the special moments spent that filled our Hearts and minds with LOVE and JOY!

Make the effort every day to be fully present in the special moments.

I will go greet the sunrise now to give thanks for another day and to send prayers out into the world. 🙏

Many Blessings to you all.

#BePresentBeTheChange

Egomaniacs

False information v no information…

Both as damaging as the other. Both lead to separation, judgements, ignorance and ego mania.

They say knowledge is power but in my experience those who have some knowledge enjoy the power too much, and those who comprehend that sharing the knowledge is where the power lays, mostly go ignored.

We own nothing in this world, all knowledge is available to everyone within the universal field of consciousness. If you struggle to find it there, try Google.

But realise, letters after your name, a fancy suit and big words don’t give you anymore wisdom than the tramp on the street.

Which is why I dropped using all my acreditations years ago. It may impress some, however, I’m not looking to impress, but to help, to educate, to empower others and to raise awareness.

Knowledge = Power

Results over O levels. 😁

May your power be focused and your ego demoted.

Many blessings.

Maria. ❤

When I Die

When I die, can’t come soon enough for me.

When I die, there will be no more resentment from you to me.

When I die, there will be no more shame that you try to hide so plain.

When I die, there will be no one left to blame.

When I die, all I have will be yours, to give or throw away.

When I die, I will know what I sacrificed, even though you never fully realised.

When I die, I MIGHT finally have some worth, in your eyes.

When I die, it will be too late to make up for the way you treated me, repeatedly.

When I die, is the day you will grow up, suddenly.

When I die, your world will change, and my memory eventually fade.

When I die, it will be a relief from all my heartache.

When I die, my only wish is that you will finally be happy

The Path to Enlightenment

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Summer is nearly officially upon us, though here in Cyprus Summer came super early, and after the long wet winter our bodies are not adjusting well, Autumn  never came, we jumped straight from winter to summer. Stay hydrated and indoors as much as possible, give your bodies a chance to acclimatise and avoid heat stroke or worse. Its going to be a long one.

Just like our bodies need the seasons to adjust and recalibrate to function properly, so it is with development on the spiritual path. There is no jumping ahead of to get to the top of our game, we have to integrate, digest, experience, practice, hone our skills before moving on to the next step.  Otherwise we overload our system with information without integrating it thoroughly, and this leads to all sorts of issues, not only or us, but more importantly for those who seek our council.

In this techno age where we have a myriad of opportunities at our fingertips, temptation is flaunted in front of us daily, like a siren to a sailor, drawing us in with the promise of something more….

Do not be fooled by the marketing schemes, or the ego’s fear of wanting more, of not knowing or being enough.  It is a trap, and one that may bring you short term gratification, but, will leave you feeling unsatisfied and unaccomplished in the long run.

The spiritual path is like a fine wine, you need to absorb it with all your senses before sipping it in slowly, absorbing all the subtle elements that that particular vessel holds.

Take your time, enjoy the journey on the path and along the way you will meet people who will hold some knowledge to accelerate your growth spurts, naturally.

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Mitakuye Oyasin

Namaste

Blessings

Maria