Faith

I once had a family,
I once had standing,
I once had a mother,
I once had a community,
I once had a career,
I once had a dream,
I once had financial security,
I once had ambition,
I once believed in humanity.

What I see now is, mistrust, multiple stab wounds in my back, betrayal, dishonesty, fake community, poverty, lies, false idols and misguided loyalties.

Yet I still hold the faith, Shine my light and live in hope that my kind heart and drive to help others, the Animal Kingdom and humanity, will one day be rewarded and my plight to remain pure in an insane world will not have been in vain.

May all beings return to wholeness, to heal from their wounds and stand in the grace once again.

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Mitakuye Oyasin. Namaste, Blessings. ❤🙏❤

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3 Weeks To Go

We will be leaving Cyprus on the 24th February after almost 5 years of highs and lows, mainly lows. The journey back is going to be a bit of a nightmare and things back in the UK are not panning out as planned. We will be moving into a camper van, a converted VW LT46 that I bought from a friend. It needs some welding doing to it and a few internal changes that he was going to do before I got back, but unfortunately he cant do it in time with his workload. No biggie really, just means that I will have to put up with less space in the van for a while, the welding I can get done elsewhere. The other issue is getting it over from Doncaster to Barnsley because it has to be insured and I will have to put him on as named driver which is around an extra £70. :/

So, I have made a youtube, fb page, tiktok and instagram pages solely for the camper van journey. I have been trying to learn how to edit vids for a year now and failed badly…but a friend recommended an app which i tried out last night and it seems fairly simple, I decided to trial run it by making a photo montage of my time in Cyprus, to remember the good times.

If you would like to follow our journey as we join the vanlife community, then please feel free to subscribe to my channel.

Here is the video I made last night. I hope you enjoy it 🙂 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vbBGzBRg8sQ

Thank you

Maria, Loui and Storm ❤

Being of Service….

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Being of Service.

Is not something you choose, well not completely any-ways.
You can be called to service and misuse it for your own selfish gains while portraying saintly hood..we see it all the time in this field, sadly!

But the call to service is nothing you can control, you can ignore it for a while but mostly it bugs the crap out of you like a Mosquito in the night drilling away at your brain till eventually you get up and squish it.

In this case squishing it means, forget trying to sleep even though you have not slept in days, are so tired that even the light in your darkened room hurts your eyes, and saying ‘OK, how can I help?’

Rookie mistakes will include trying to brush it off and sleeping, only to prolong the chance of sleep…or ignore the pull of energy leading you down a certain path and miss an opportunity to help someone/thing or witness some amazing phenomena. Or, completely forget the lyrics to that song that has been going around in your head for 3 days, or that poem, or that wisdom teaching you are meant to share with others, or you will loose the image of that painting, symbol or symbolic art from nature.

When you are truly the hollow bone, dedicated and aware of these subtle/not so subtle nudges, then you take note and act accordingly, straight away (or at least not take 3 days to then lose it)

Being of service is a great gift, an honour and though at times it may feel like the gods are torturing you for some unknown reason, the rewards of heeding the call brings so much peace and healing, expansion and connection, that heeding the call becomes a treasured longing, it fulfils our human need for purpose.

So today I ask you to listen to the inner call, to follow that pull in your solar plexus, take note of the inner imagery and send that healing.

This is what you were born to do.

– Maria Wind Talker

In the Midst of Change

The Fig Tree that gifted this message as I was chopping down the trees that had surrounded it.

In the Midst of change

 

Remember my voice, said the Wind, and the coolness of my breeze.

 

Remember my heat, says the Sun, and how I bring light into the darkness.


Remember my Fluidness, says water. And how I bare all life.

Remember my Abundance says the Earth, and all the bounty I provide.

 

Remember the shade I offer, says the Tree, and all the clean air for you to breathe.

 

Remember the Majesty I bring, says the mountain. A reminder that all obstacles can be overcome.

 

Remember my morning song, says the bird. And the joy of witnessing a new day.

 

In the Midst of change, remember seasons come and go, but the cycles of nature remains the same. Take time to ponder the magic of each day and be grateful for the stability around you.

 

Mitakuye Oyasin

 

Namaste

 

Many Blessings

 

Maria Wind Talker. ♥️

 

When you think things cant get worse….

Sorry for not being around much since moving to Cyprus.  This has got to be the worst decision I ever made in my life!!!

This is were we are at right now 😦

Since moving here my dog got paralysed, due to his routine I cant find work, so I moved to rented accommodation and put renters into my daughters flat to cover expenses here and leave me 150eu a month to live on. 

I have been so depressed with struggling to survive that ive lost all sense of my spiritual connection, hence no poems or ramblings.

Been trying to get back to the uk or a year now but cant get off the island with loui, and now my life savings are practically gone.

The tennants have not paid me in 6 months, ignore my calls and texts, so I got a solicitor involved and they said they would leave by end of January and let me know when they left, because I would have to move back to the flat, as i can no longer pay rent here!

On Monday I went to pay the outstanding bills and see if they had left yet seen as they still ignoring texts etc and this is what they left me with.  1145 eu in bills and the flat totally trashed 😦

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The flat is inhabitable, lots of repairs needs doing, so we have put it up for sale, which means I cant go back there and cant pay rent here.  No idea what I will do but Please send prayers ❤

Blessings

Maria

 

 

Moments Make Memories

Moments Make Memories

Been awake since 4am…still amazes me the amount of traffic at that time on the motorway. I mean it makes sense to work early morning because its too hot by 8am but seriously what jobs are they going to? what time do they finish? and are they asleep by 7pm every night to be on the road by 4am?

Not sure who has it worse those who’s body clocks are working on WTF? all the time to earn money to pay for stuff they never see, or, people like me who barely get by financially but get to enjoy watching the stars from my bed or from my hammock, get to spend time with nature with my fur-babies to play, dance create and live in the moment.

Its a funny old world, as programmed beings we are expected to follow a certain pattern and when life kicks you off the hamster wheel and stops you from getting back on it, people judge you without knowing your situation fully and even then some still sit in judgement.

What I have come to realise in the past 7yrs that I have been ill and out of work, is that neither scenario brings 100% happiness or contentment. Everything is in balance, equal opposites, there can be no light without dark. Our task no matter what life throws at us is to ‘Acknowledge’ those moments that lift our hearts, that switch our brains off from the struggles in our life, in the world and fully appreciate them. Because those moments no matter how fleeting are the reason we are alive. When we die, we wont be recalling the day we earn’t X amount of money on that one job, or buying that cinema screen size TV that we never get time to watch. We will remember the special moments spent that filled our Hearts and minds with LOVE and JOY!

Make the effort every day to be fully present in the special moments.

I will go greet the sunrise now to give thanks for another day and to send prayers out into the world. 🙏

Many Blessings to you all.

#BePresentBeTheChange

The Path to Enlightenment

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Summer is nearly officially upon us, though here in Cyprus Summer came super early, and after the long wet winter our bodies are not adjusting well, Autumn  never came, we jumped straight from winter to summer. Stay hydrated and indoors as much as possible, give your bodies a chance to acclimatise and avoid heat stroke or worse. Its going to be a long one.

Just like our bodies need the seasons to adjust and recalibrate to function properly, so it is with development on the spiritual path. There is no jumping ahead of to get to the top of our game, we have to integrate, digest, experience, practice, hone our skills before moving on to the next step.  Otherwise we overload our system with information without integrating it thoroughly, and this leads to all sorts of issues, not only or us, but more importantly for those who seek our council.

In this techno age where we have a myriad of opportunities at our fingertips, temptation is flaunted in front of us daily, like a siren to a sailor, drawing us in with the promise of something more….

Do not be fooled by the marketing schemes, or the ego’s fear of wanting more, of not knowing or being enough.  It is a trap, and one that may bring you short term gratification, but, will leave you feeling unsatisfied and unaccomplished in the long run.

The spiritual path is like a fine wine, you need to absorb it with all your senses before sipping it in slowly, absorbing all the subtle elements that that particular vessel holds.

Take your time, enjoy the journey on the path and along the way you will meet people who will hold some knowledge to accelerate your growth spurts, naturally.

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Mitakuye Oyasin

Namaste

Blessings

Maria

To Be Or Not To Be…

This is the big question…

Who are you when you are not being who others expect you to be?

Who do you become when others see that you are human, with all your failings and achievements?

Who do you become when you look in the mirror?

Who are you being when you interact with a stranger for the first time?

Who is the one being when you be?

Do you feel safe to simply be? To show YOU in all your colours?

Do you fear that others will judge or walk away if you truly step into being all of you, all of the time, 7 days a week?

Are those same people truly being all they can be?

Too often we change or adapt our true selves to fit in the boxes society puts us in, stamped and labelled for the world to see.

I say to you, step out of the box, wear it as a hat if you must till you feel comfortable being fully exposed and naked, but remove the label and replace it with, this is ME!

Then throw that box in the recycle bin and step into a new confidant you, the you you were always meant to be.

Shine your light so brightly that those pretending to be, have to close the lid on their boxes and those that are removing theirs can see they are not alone.

To be yourself in a world filled with pain is the bravest thing you can be.

Love you, all of you. No excuses, no blame, no regret, no shame.

Do not worry about those who fall away, one day they too shall remove their boxes of shame and find themselves once again.

Be the change by BEING your authentic self and loving every aspect of your magnificent, flawed, vibrant, unique self.

The world needs more honest communication and that starts with the conversation with self.

………………………………………………

Mitakuye Oyasin

Namaste

Blessings

MWT 💟

Did You Ever know Your My Hero…

Did You Ever know Your My Hero…

Throughout our lives we have many ‘Hero’s’ people we look up to, aspire to be like, proud of etc etc…I have been blessed by so many amazing souls in my life I am truly grateful for each and every one, even the ones who are no longer with us on earth plane or no longer in our circles, are still held in my heart with love and gratitude.

Our Hero’s change with the passing of time, not replacing the old ones, they still remain an inspiration, a bar for us to aspire to. But time brings us new people and events that bring more opportunity for growth and learning. Personally I could write a book just on the people that I have actually known who have inspired me, let alone famous people.
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My greatest hero now though is my Loui, he is just amazing. Next month will be a year since his tragic accident. This past 11months has been difficult to say the least. Mentally, emotionally, spiritually, physically and financially. But, for as much as my life has been turned upside down, bent sideways and caused so much anguish, he is the one who’s life has been affected the most. Loui was so active, psycho nut case, who just loved to run and run and run. Full of life, joy and mischief.
An active human would have given up, I know when my back went out in 2011 and I couldn’t walk for nearly a year and was in agony for 5years, I contemplated exiting this life on more than one occasion. They were the most alone years I have ever felt. Loui was my only constant companion, he made me laugh when days were bleak and gave me comfort when I couldn’t even speak.
Prior to that i was the life and soul of the party, huge social circle, my nickname for years was ‘Mad Maz’ because like Loui, I was pretty out there.
So you see I have an understanding of how helpless he feels, how useless he must feel now as his role as my body guard is reduced to a bark, how restricted he feels not being able to get up and even go to the toilet by himself.
But here he is, he has been to deaths door and turned away from it, he has suffered horrendous pain and despair, endured the pain of physio 3 times a day when he was still in pain, and fought against all odds to gain some mobility in his broken body and mind.
Loui was my saving grace when my back debilitated me, if it weren’t for him needing to go toilet and get exorcise I would probably still be paralysed myself.

But I had to take him out, even when I could hardly stand. Granted at first most days he was restricted to being let out in the garden (which he hated, refused to toilet) but once I could shuffle my feet I took him out, and on the days I couldn’t, my amazing friends helped where they could. Support is everything, even if just a little, it makes a huge difference! Loui saved my life, the least I could do was save his too.
So, to those who continue to tell me that I should have him put to sleep because I have no life or money. You will never understand the bond we have, the debt I owe him or the unconditional love we share. Yes there has been days when I regretted not putting him to sleep at the start, but, I also know that I could not have lived with myself and would not have been far behind him had I not given him the chance.
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Loui is my Hero, he is the strongest being that I know and has taught me so much over the years, this last year being the most profound. He deserves all the love and support I can give him for the time he has left with me, he is my soul mate.
He continues to inspire me to live in the moment and to take simple pleasures where I can.
The song below is dedicated to all the people and fur babies who have helped, inspired and encouraged me throughout my life. ❤
Who is your hero and how have they influenced your life?

May you always blessed with Hero’s to remind you of the Hero within yourself.
Many Blessings
Maria. ❤