21 Years Later

Dear Mum

It has been 21 years today that you left us to take your journey to reunite with creator and our ancestors.  21 years, such a long time yet at times only yesterday, the feelings still raw when our guard is down.

Were you only a year older than I am now?  It seems even more unfair now as I realise that 51 is only the start to embracing life.

You are missed daily and often in my prayers, for guidance, compassion, forgiveness, gratitude and love.

The Easter season is about resurrection to some, yet for us it was a crucifixion that has taken 21 years to come full circle and rebirth for me.  I’m sorry I am such a slow learner and procrastination being my Achilles heal but I am finally going home, in the same season that it began!

You taught me a lot mum, how to show compassion, generosity, forgiveness and love.  You also taught me how not to be, so that I may remain within the lessons of life you showed me, which are the foundation of my being.  Thank you ❤

Thank you for loving me during my ‘spirit’ episodes as a child, through my selfish teenage years and through the first 6yrs of being a mother myself. Your input to our lives has left a huge hole.

So now in my 50th year, I am following in our shared dream to live out our days on our beloved mother land.  A dream you never got to live out.  I will honour you there and carry you with me to all our favourite places, and think of you every time I see a bottle of KEO.

M – Mysterious

U – Unbeatable

M – Matriarch

I know you would be really proud of our beautiful Natasha, as I am.  She has turned out to be everything and more than what we could have hoped for after such great triple loss, she even looks like you at times.  We speak of you often to keep your memory alive and hearts connected, but, you know that don’t you.  ❤

See you soon in the Vill-Aige then we going to the Thalassa to eat Bowaton. 😉

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Love You Always

H Kori sou ❤ ❤

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Turn back Time…

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Well what a mixed up weekend of energies it will be, New Moon on Saturday (in today till Sunday) so you might all be feeling that already. (I woke up today crying at a dream about my daughters wedding)
On Sunday the clocks go back an hour.  So on Monday we will wake up to sudden darkness when it would normally be light. (Vit C boosts recommended) I cant get my head around this turning back time malarky, or time in itself, but only man could be so obnoxious to try to control nature and his fellow man.
Luckily for some of us we are still connected to our biological clock, even if by a tiny thread, we still hold onto the ways of nature and live within the cycle as much as we can. Hold onto your thread, pay attention and it will grow stronger.
And, on Monday it is Sahmain, All Hallows Eve, the Day of the Dead, or Halloween, depending on where you are from.
What a Doozy of a time lol
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Today would be a great day to take stock of what lies beneath, what fears of the future or maybe of Halloween do you carry? name them, write them out, get them out into the light of day.  Then tomorrow night, burn it under the New Moon, release them to the ancestors and ask for grace.
On Monday, take time to honour the dead, start with your own ancestors then let yourself be Heart led to include them all. ❤

”Darker days are coming, time to retire to the cave, to rest, to read, to contemplate.
In the stillness of the dark, all that is at unrest can be revealed, released and healed.
 
The Dark night of the Soul shatters all blocks to pieces.
Creating space for dreams and fantasy’s to be re-seeded..
 
The soul recharged and ready to rise with dawning of the, spring Equinoxal sun.  As you stretch and yawn, a new time again has just begun”

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Blessings

MWT. ❤


Digesting our 5 a Day…

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Yesterday, while walking I was thinking about how we ‘feed’ our earthly bodies to provide it with fuel, vitamins and minerals to keep it healthy,  and how we exercise it to keep it strong and functional.  We know that if we slack off in any of these areas, then our bodies will deteriorate and illness will set it.

So what then of the other part of our bodies that we may not be aware of, such as our emotional, Mental and spiritual body, our Soul?

Though most may feel it is a separate entity and in a way it is, however, when in this earthly vehicle it is intimately woven into every fibre of our being, it is after all the life force that pumps our heart and lungs, in affect giving us life.

Our Spiritual or Etherical bodies then, also require the same mindful attention that we give our physical bodies. We must feed them, care for them, exercise them daily to maintain a healthy self.

How do we do this, when time for most people is an issue, how can we fit 5 more self care things to our daily routine ?

What are our 5 a day supplements for the soul?

Deprogramming our mental body creates a ripple affect throughout all of our spiritual and physical bodies, so it makes sense to focus there at the source. We do this by changing how we think and we do that by changing the language we use about our stories and in our daily conversations.

Daily Affirmations have been proven to bring about sustainable changes in peoples thinking which in turn changes how they feel about things and brings about physical healing as they release old programming and free up the energy blocks that held them in the loop of pain.

In my FB group I post a daily affirmation which many have commented on how they help them, but, is one affirmation a day enough to break down stubborn blocks?

Some people struggle with affirmations if it is too far out of their belief, for example: For someone who struggles with weight issues, repeating, ‘ I am slender and healthy’, when they can see/feel this is not so and far away from their ultimate goal, may not bring about results as they desire as their ego mind will step in with doubt.  By changing the wording slightly to, ‘I choose to make healthy choices daily’, we can appease the ego and changes begin to occur, confidence builds and before you know it the original mantra comes into play. 

One of my favourite sayings around affirmations is, ‘Fake it till you make it’.  Like with all programming, the more you are subjected to its vibration the more it embeds and overwrites the old programme.

Positive quotes have the same affect in a more subtle way, metaphor brings a sense of awareness without the ego going into defence mode.

Why not fast track, take that hose and super blast those neurons clean with 5 affirmations or positive quotes that stir your soul to reach its highest potential?

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Here are 5 affirmations to try.

  1. I choose to forgive those who have harmed me in my past and peacefully detach from them.
  2. I choose to be the architect of my life; I build its foundation and choose its contents.
  3. Today, I am brimming with energy and overflowing with joy.
  4. My body is healthy; my mind is brilliant; my soul is tranquil.
  5. I am beyond reacting to negative thoughts and low actions.

And here are 5 Quotes to try

“There are two ways of spreading light: to be the candle, or the mirror that reflects it.”  – Edith Wharton

“With everything that has happened to you, you can either feel sorry for yourself or treat what has happened as a gift. Everything is either an opportunity to grow or an obstacle to keep you from growing. You get to choose.” – Dr. Wayne W Dyer

“Today is a new beginning, a chance to turn your failures into achievements & your sorrows into so goods. No room for excuses.” – Joel Brown

“An attitude of positive expectation is the mark of the superior personality.”  – Brian Tracy

“We are all here for some special reason. Stop being a prisoner of your past. Become the architect of your future.” – Robin Sharma


As you read through these affirmations and quotes, sit with each one, repeat it out loud and inwardly.  How does it feel? What are your thoughts, feelings, memories, hopes?


What is your favourite affirmation or quote?

With Autumn comes the shedding of the old, to feast on its bounty and to prepare for new growth in the spring.

May the Equinoxal tides carry you towards the shore of your highest potential.

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Mitakuye Oyasin

Namaste

Blessings.

MWT. ❤

Releasing Grief

In loving memory of all who have gone before, who wait beside the open door. To greet us with  love and arms spread wide, within their smile we will forever reside.

                                                                                                 

I release the weight of grief and pain.
For in my heart all remain.

As beings of light and sound and waves, together we live on beyond the grave. 

With great admiration, I give thanks for your grace, for choosing to share your gifts with the human race. 

I give thanks that my eyes were blessed to gaze upon your face, and realise without a doubt, that we are all one in outer space.

Mitakuye Oyasin.

MWT ❤

20 Years

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Today is the 20th Anniversary of my mothers passing over the rainbow bridge and felt drawn to honour her memory by sharing her story.

Born Annika Gregoriou in 1944 in Cyprus, she grew up in a farming family, with 7 Siblings. All hands were needed, so schooling was a luxury and she only went to school for one year before having to pull her weight at home at the age of 7.

Age 15 her father arranged a marriage for her as part of a buisness deal, they got engaged then on finding out that he was already married, she had her excuse to escape before they married her off. Her younger brother had come to the UK a few months before and arranged for her to join him.

15 yr old when she left Cyprus.

She worked alongside her brother in a friends Cafe and she cleaned at the B+B where they stayed, to earn money to survive and send back to her parents.  That is where she met my father, a Trucker, who was staying at the B+B. They married in 1964.

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They were married for 13years, mum loved children and wanted a big family. Sadly she had 8 Miscarriages and ended up with just me. She would never talk about how she nearly lost me age 2 when I drown, I guess the memory was too hard to bare.

We had a wonderful family holiday in Cyprus just before the war in 1974.

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They split when I was 8yrs old and we moved into a friends place to house sit while she visited her daughter in Australia for a year. I befriended our neighbour Gladys and she took us in like family and we looked after her till the end of her days when I was 13.

Me and mum when I was 7 and 9.

Mum got Alapechia and Anorexia when we left my dad, she was ill for a couple of years but never stopped caring for me and everyone else, through her challenging times.

Her greatest Joy was when my daughter was born, she loved her like her own child.

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She had a sense of humour that got her through the dark times.  She always thought of others before herself, I guess it was drilled in from childhood.  Her brothers didnt speak (still not) for many years and her biggest wish was that they resolved their differences.

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Even though she was brought up being forced to kill animals, she had a love for them, an empathy, an innate need to nurture. The pics below were taken in my room where I grew up at my grandparents, with the bunny she rescued from her dad and with her Mum.

My mum raised money for heart units at Pinderields hospital, ironically it is where she was died (killed) You can see a a clip from the newspaper framed above her in this pic, from one of the times that she was in there for fundraising for the hospital.

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When she came to visit us in Cyprus in 1995 the year before she died, she made us curtains for the flat, she loved to sew and used to make Weding dresses when I was a child.  Growing up I used to promise that one day I would get her her own Sewing shop in Cyprus. That never happened, the year she was moving back to Cyprus is when she died.  Now looking back at the pictures, it is plain to see that she was unwell.

Mum was a special lady, who endured a lot in her short life but held on to the love in her heart with a smile on her face and never lost sight of hope.  She had an equally veracious temper, I bare the scars to prove it. She demanded respect and she got it, she deserved it, that heart on her sleeve meant too many people took advantage and that harsh exterior led people to belive she was tougher than nails, including me in my younger years.

Dead at 51 due to malpractice, her life was just about to start and it was taken from her, from us all, without a second thought or apology.  My biggest heartbreak is that my daughter missed out on her influence, her Love.

She taught me to be who I am and writing this I see the similarities, good and bad.

Life is not gauranteed, tell those you care about that you love them, take that trip, pack in your job and find your vocation, dont wait until tomorrow , till the time is right to do what your heart wants, it may not be given.

There is not a day goes by that I do not miss her, pain heals all wounds they say and it does, the memories, lessons and love however, will always remain. 🙂 ❤

R.I.P. Mum 21.10.44 – 19.4.96