4 am Musings

4 am Musings

Kamares Larnaca Cyprus.

Our zest for life...

When we are born with every day we step one day closer to our death. As children we have no concept of death, only life. Each day something new to learn and explore, a new bug in the grass, a new friend made, a new experience. Life is full of firsts.

We feel safe and loved within our family’s bosom (for most) and we are held in that cocoon till our teenage years when hormones and rebellion kicks in as we strive to forge our own path and define our own personalities.

The love bubble of we can no do wrong bursts, as we no longer the apple of our families eyes, turns into the shame stain upon the family name. We, arrogant and stubborn, determined to sail our own ships shove the pain of rejection into the gallows and sail off for adventures new. The first real understanding of death and rebirth.

We set out on our careers, or at least search for one, some driven by money, others by purpose. Here we encounter many trials from asshole boss to peer pressure and self defamation. Thoughts of survival begin to creep in here.

Soon there is a spouse, a child, a home, extended family and stress. The burden of sustainability, responsibility and good health plays on our minds daily. We join a gym, eat healthier, create fun times and try stave the worries from our minds.

Each day a reminder that we are one step closer to the grave but now we have our own family to consider and the loss we leave behind. Death/life intertwined like a tango in our minds.

Our children leave, their own ships to sail. Now we are alone and chase our own dreams that were put to the side long ago. And those heavy bags we left in the gallows surface for us to deal with.

Some days we long for death to take away the pain, others we embrace life with both hands and thank the Goddess we are alive.

Illness sets in, something small at first we brush aside, denying that our days are numbered and that rebel inside says, ‘not yet there’s too much to do and see‘, and captain invincible carrys on as usual, ignoring the signs. Denial sets in.

Our older years sees our friends and family drop like flies, death is now real and we are on the wrong side, life is fading, how long will we last?

We reflect on our lives. The pain, the laughter, the love, the moments. No matter how painful the memories we cling to life, with all its hardships, sadness and loss. We treasure the joys, the simple things, the soul bonds of love, the sunsets the flowers, the pets we loved and lost, the friendships, the kindness, the sea, the mountains, the trees, nature our planet.

Even with a life threatening diagnosis, terminal, means fight harder for this sacred gift of life. How much did we squander dueling with the past?

The questions we ask ~ Why are we born to be taken so fast?, why can’t this life simply last? and When we take that final breath, is it really the end?

Mitakuye Oyasin

Namaste

Blessings.

Maria Wind Talker <3

Do I Stay or Do I Go?

Last May I was ready to leave Cyprus and head back to the UK. The plan was to catch the ferry to Greece with my car and drive back, so that Loui does not suffer the same or worse trauma that he did when he came here on the flight, however, the Ferry was cancelled due to the ‘plandemic’.

They claim that it will open this year around May/June time, if it actually does. It stopped running around 10 years ago after the refugee situation got out of hand here. At the moment there are no direct flights to the UK for the dogs, which to be fair is not something I want to do with Loui after last time, but also now he has to be manually toileted every 3/4 hours and the journey with wait times etc will be approximately 10 hours.

On top of all that worry, we now have the threat of ‘Vaccine Passports’, I for one will not be having it, and I must leave before this becomes a thing! When that will be though is unclear, adding to the confusion and urgency to leave.

So why leave and is the UK any better? Here’s the rub. Over here I can not find part time work and not able to work full time because of Louis needs, I do not have anyone to see to him. Even if I found a permanent part time job the wages are 5e an hour, giving me exactly half of what I need to survive each month. I can not claim any benefits due to previous employers not paying in my national insurance, and if I did find someone to take care of Loui my wage would pay theirs lol. I have been ripped off so much over here that is beyond a joke, you all remember the flat video, that is just the tip of the iceberg. Also, due to my high blood pressure the heat in the summer totally debilitates me to the point that I cant even think, let alone function enough to work. However, there are PLUS sides here too. I have some amazing friends who have helped me in so many ways and who I will be forever grateful to. A couple of those have swimming pools that I can dip in any time I need to to stop my head and heart exploding, that is, if I can function enough to drive there. The beach is also only 20 mins away, not that I go because its too hot lol I live in the middle of nowhere in a valley surrounded by countryside, big bonus. And after years of being ignored and brushed aside by Drs in the UK I am finally getting some proper medical help here, though I have to pay for it. The biggest plus is the vet fees here are a third the cost of UK vets, and with Loui needing constant visits (he has to have another operation this week) well, that’s a big chunk of money I wouldn’t be able to cover in the UK.

UK then? Besides the expense of moving back to the UK, when I get there I have nowhere to live. The council will not offer me a house until I have been back 6 months, nor can I claim any benefits for 6 months. Its like history repeating itself, when I went back when mum died with my 6yr old daughter, we were technically homeless (sofa surfing) for two years before we got a house. A dear friend has offered to put us up for two weeks while we isolate but after that, feck knows? It was hard enough with a kid but with two dogs one of which is paralyzed and double incontinent, well I cant blame people for not wanting us to sofa surf. And now the UK is fecked beyond repair with the fear mongering lies that have enslaved a nation!….PLUS sides, my daughter is there and if I am going to be stuck somewhere due to draconian rule, then I would rather be close to my daughter. I have amazing friends in the UK who if not for them having readings/therapy and attending my online groups, I would not have scraped by here so long, for them I am eternally grateful. Regarding the housing situation, I can get a camper van fairly cheap over there, it is something I have always wanted to do anyway, and even if it is only temporary until I get a job etc it is an option providing I can find the money from somewhere. Food, clothing and vehicles are cheaper in the UK. Part time jobs are easier to find and I have friends who will help with Loui.

So this has been my dilemma for the past two years, should I stay or should I go??

All I know is that I can not survive here another 4 years or know how to get me back to the UK and get set up again without a miracle.

No Hate or Anguish Can Survive Where Only Love Resides.

No Hate or Anguish Can Survive Where Only Love Resides.

This just came to me while weeding the garden yesterday ❤️

To the brainwashed

The weary

The ignored theory.

The sad

The lonely

The unmasked

And the jury.

For the souls lost

The grieving and teary

To the nay sayers

And dream weavers

The dragon slayers

Game changers

The on the fencers

And armed up defenses

To the planet lovers

The earth keepers

And positive awakeners

The star gazing believers

The worshipers

And healers.

Whatever you are experiencing is yours to behold, but, remember each other within this ode.

For we are all unique in feelings and action. But we are all one and the same, without distraction.

Come together, unite, one mind one heart, accept each other, that’s always a good start.

Be grateful for the little things, let’s raise the vibe.

No hate or anguish can survive where only love resides.

Mitakuye Oyasin

Namaste

Blessings

Maria Wind Talker 🙏❤️

Xmas Eve 2020

Xmas Eve 2020

Xmas eve of the past,

That last minute shopping dash,

Cleaning till everything sparkles like glass,

Preparing the veggies with loved ones,

Sharing a glass,

Singing Xmas songs,

Watching Bridget Jones

And opening Xmas Eve gifts before bed.

Xmas eve 2020

What a different scene for many,

For those with partners and kids,

Not much will be different,

But for those living alone,

Family has never felt so distant.

So pick up that phone,

Send a text or email,

Better still, face time

and gap the divide

Bring a smile, an opening of the heart,

Break the Isolation.

Check in on a neighbor

The elderly,

the single mum,

the ones alone,

and don’t forget the wildlife

Give back to mother earth.

We are all connected in hearts and minds,

No restrictions can cancel that bond,

So give thanks for your loved ones,

your friends,

your pets.

And give thanks for this day,

for the extra breath.

The Love we give, we do receive,

and lets pray together

For the new year, a reprieve.

Wishing you all a Happy, Healthy, and Inspired Christmas.

Love and Blessings

Maria. ❤

Yule Tide Blessings 2020

2020 the year of chaos, fear, manipulation, control and AWAKENINGS!

The Return of the Light.

Solstice on the 21st this year will bring a natural phenomena that we have not witnessed in 400 years. The great conjunction of Saturn and Jupiter. The union is already visible if you are lucky enough to have a clear night sky, and tomorrow evening at sunset they will be at the closest point at 0.1 degrees apart. These conjunctions happen every 20 years but none as close as this one, observable at least since 1226, and the next one wont be until March 15 2080.

We are living in auspicious times my friends. Forget what is playing out on the world stage right now by its leading puppets, check in with your heart, not your head. The world is awakening, people are rising up like never before and not just your common man but those who are witness first hand too.

Lets take a look at the numbers. 1226 ~ 11 ~ 0.01 ~ 2080 ~ 10 ~ ~11.11

The number 11 is a very powerful number by itself. What is meaningful is that this is seen by many as an indicator of an increasingly powerful ‘call to consciousness’ that is occurring all over our beloved planet. The depth of the 11:11 connection would appear to be synchronized to our level of awareness and understanding of how fundamental the connection that exists between the physical and spiritual worlds is. In Numerology the number 11 is a master number and represents inspiration, illumination, and spiritual enlightenment. 11:11 Gateway or Portal: the doorway between the 3rd dimensional and the 5th dimensional worlds. 11:11 presents you an opportunity to reflect on your spiritual purpose for being here. The number 11 is potent with ~ manifestation powers ~ So be sure to pay attention to your thoughts right now, thinking positive thoughts only, especially during this alignment, because it’s quite possible that just through the power of thought alone, you as an individual and us collectively, may create a new reality.

Interestingly, this alignment is associated with the star of David that led the 3 kings to baby Jesus in the bible. Which to me feels like we have come full circle, from a mind control system to a new/old way of being. A rebirth if you will of pre religion into a new age, the Age of Aquarius.

Jupiter and Saturn conjunction 21st December 2020

Gatherings are limited right now so celebrations of Yule may be stunted, but remember, we are all connected so no matter if you spend a few moments on quiet contemplation, around a fire, candle or simply within focusing on Gratitude, Peace, Unity, Health and Happiness. KNOW that a) YOU ARE A CONSCIOUS CREATOR and b) that your prayers/intentions will join the collective field of co creators, and together we WILL bring in the new dawn.

I will be holding fire ceremony and will hold you all in my prayers.

May the light return to your hearts and minds and flood the planet with ENLIGHTENMENT and FAITH in a New PARADIGM of Awakened beings.

Mitakuye Oyasin

Namaste

Blessings.

Maria Wind Talker.

End of an Era

End of an Era

On Tuesday we closed the book on the final chapter to the whole Flat saga.

The year before my mum died in 1996 she put a deposit on a flat here in Cyprus, with the intention of coming back the year after to pay most of it off and to move back out here, her homeland. Unfortunately, less than a year later she died and never got to live out her dream.

In her will, she left the flat to my daughter who was 6 years old at the time, so it was left in trust to me until she was 21. The remainder of the mortgage was down to me to pay if I wanted to respect my Mum’s wishes.

Being a single parent in rented accommodation, with no financial help from my ex husband, it was a daunting task, but, I thought it would be a good investment for my daughters future if I could manage it somehow.

After a year or so I decided to rent it out so that the mortgage would be covered at least. So I came back to put it in the Estate Agents etc, then one of the relo’s brought a Cypriot guy he knew, so we signed contracts and he paid me one months rent and one months retainer. My uncle was going to collect the rent and pay the mortgage with it, however, he never collected any rent and after a year of me ringing constantly the guy left and took most of my things with him. A really expensive Chinese rug that my mum bought me, all my Crystal ware that had been gifts over the years on birthdays etc from a family friend plus various other things. My family did nothing! In spite of said uncle working in the court offices!!

This was just the start of nearly 20 years of renters and family from HELL!

Some of you may remember the video I posted earlier this year of the latest atrocity, the flat trashed ‘AGAIN’ I might add. That was the final straw, they left owing 3,500eu in unpaid bills which is now at 4,000 with other stuff I had to pay for too. The police did nothing!

So my daughter decided to sell the flat as neither of us could afford to fix the damages. To be honest I didn’t think anyone would buy it in the state it was in, not just the damages but it was disgustingly dirty, I cleaned it up a bit but without water and electric I couldn’t do it properly, it needed a lot of deep cleaning.

Before lock down she had a young couple interested, the guy was a builder so wasn’t phased by the damage. All was going well, they just needed a bank loan for 5,000 they had the rest. Then lock down happened and the banks stopped all loans. So it fell through.

When we came out of lock down, we were advised to drop the price even further as we were heading for recession. I wasn’t happy about that as it was going below what I spent on it as it was, but my daughter agreed and found a buyer within a couple of weeks.

So, on Tuesday the deeds were transferred and that ended the nightmare, finally!

In spite of the huge loss and excessive pay outs to estate agents, tax offices, etc, I hope that what is left will at least go some way to making my daughters life a little easier. That is after all, all a parent wishes for, for their children, an easier, stress free life than ours.

With every ending starts a new beginning.….

Being of Service….

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Being of Service.

Is not something you choose, well not completely any-ways.
You can be called to service and misuse it for your own selfish gains while portraying saintly hood..we see it all the time in this field, sadly!

But the call to service is nothing you can control, you can ignore it for a while but mostly it bugs the crap out of you like a Mosquito in the night drilling away at your brain till eventually you get up and squish it.

In this case squishing it means, forget trying to sleep even though you have not slept in days, are so tired that even the light in your darkened room hurts your eyes, and saying ‘OK, how can I help?’

Rookie mistakes will include trying to brush it off and sleeping, only to prolong the chance of sleep…or ignore the pull of energy leading you down a certain path and miss an opportunity to help someone/thing or witness some amazing phenomena. Or, completely forget the lyrics to that song that has been going around in your head for 3 days, or that poem, or that wisdom teaching you are meant to share with others, or you will loose the image of that painting, symbol or symbolic art from nature.

When you are truly the hollow bone, dedicated and aware of these subtle/not so subtle nudges, then you take note and act accordingly, straight away (or at least not take 3 days to then lose it)

Being of service is a great gift, an honour and though at times it may feel like the gods are torturing you for some unknown reason, the rewards of heeding the call brings so much peace and healing, expansion and connection, that heeding the call becomes a treasured longing, it fulfils our human need for purpose.

So today I ask you to listen to the inner call, to follow that pull in your solar plexus, take note of the inner imagery and send that healing.

This is what you were born to do.

– Maria Wind Talker

United in Raising the Vibration

Call to Service ❤

Bear Foot Holistics

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Hello all my relations, I hope that all is well with you and yours at this time?
 
As you may already be aware, recently I was guided to create a platform where healers can come together to share self-help tips with everyone during these uncertain times.
So on the 6thy April I started a week long series of live chats/interviews with some amazing people who I have personally worked with over the years, people who have inspired me, and who I respect deeply. As light workers they have a lot of wisdom to share with the world, and it was an honour to have them support the calling.
 
We had some amazing feedback and requests to continue.
 
So with this in mind I would like to offer one live ‘Therapy sharing’ per week, to include a practical skill that people can join in with. i.e. Meditation, NLP…

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Music, a Vibrational Frequency.

Gotta love those 5am epiphanies… Trance Dance/Techno Music, and why even my hair shrivels in a cringe when I hear it.

  1. The energy is too erratic All the time. It’s like the strobe lights and your energy are one. I can see how some people have fits under that lighting because the energetic pattern is totally nauseating. And this may sound odd, but it’s all very monotone. I know it’s called trance music for a reason but has the opposite affect for me, it totally gets on my nerves lol
  2. There is no emotional dimension to it, other than hyper mode. Nothing to emote to or with, that will touch your soul deeply. The euphoria it brings is more like hysteria on an energetic level. It actually annoys me, like a ticking clock in a quiet room. Music is after all the language of the Soul and feeling annoyed is not going to inspire me to listen to it again.
  3. Musicians play instruments not tinny sound bites. There is something magical about hearing a guitar for example, that can make you weep or rock out. To witness an artist sharing their years of honed gifts, their life purpose with you and to feel the flow and blend when a band plays together. Music is about our personal journey, on a collective sound wave, shared by all in that stream.
  4. The power of a live gig, the pure sound healing that vibrates through your body, the endorphins released, the feeling of unity as hundreds of people come together to share their love and appreciation for the artists and their music. You have world peace right there, shared love and appreciation.
  5. So it’s not simply that I’m old and out dated, I do appreciate all music, even some tech stuff but, you just can’t beat real music, played with passion, emanating from such special souls who touch our lives in ways far beyond what they will ever know.

Just my opinion, I am sure techno heads will say the same. 🙂

Whatever rocks your boat, different streams, same journey.

I’m a Rock chic, screaming guitars that make your hairs stand on end, and your whole being feel alive 🤘

“Let music be the food of Love” ♥️

Blessings to all sound wave travellers.

Maria Wind Talker ♥️

 

 

#StayAtHome Online Help

Here to lend a helping hand ❤

Bear Foot Holistics

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Hello all my relations

Now more than ever our services are required as people are isolated, scared and stress levels for most are through the roof. With stress being one of the biggest contributors to lowering the immune system and rendering you more susceptible to illness, then self-care is even more important during these times. Know that you are not alone, and isolation does not mean that you cannot receive the help and guidance that you need right now to maintain a healthy mind and body.

We are here to help in any way that we can, we offer various treatments online via ‘Messenger, Skype or Zoom’.

‘Meditation, Reiki, E.F.T, Medicine Card Guidance, Life Coaching, Cord Removal, Shamanic Healing, Animal Healing, Attachment Release and Space Clearing’.

As people are out of work or on lower incomes until this all blows over, we would like to assist even further by making…

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