What to do…

What to do when the thoughts won’t stop rolling round in your head.

Things they said make you feel used, unappreciated, unheard and disregarded like your life has been wasted on always putting their happiness ahead.

What to do, to change this bed self made of love and care, that is a constant source of pain and despair.

What to do when knowing that you will never feel safe and secure in all your years that lay ahead. Because you sacrificed your security for theirs instead.

What to do when you long for the cold darkness of death to relieve you of the nightmare, of the pain they cause without care.

What to do when to some your just a cash cow, and to others a figure head.

What to do when you can no longer go on with this fight in your mind and the tear in your heart, with no needle or thread.

What to do when they don’t see That their selfish actions will be the death of you.

What to do. I implore to the stars as I sit here another night heartbroke covered in scars.

Even they have no answer, in shock and ashamed at the cold hearted soul who refuses any blame.

In despair I say OK, let them have their way, but take me home and make me whole again.

10 thoughts on “What to do…

  1. I know, that you are a very strong woman Maria and you will get over it again ❤
    Don't take anything personal, it is all about them. How they act are their responsibility, how you react to them is your responsibility.
    Send you love, my friend ❤

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