Since my back going out in September 2011 and the extra illnesses that arose from that, life came to a standstill. Until winter 2014, when I had the idea to build a website solely dedicated to Hypnotherapy, thinking that it would be the best way forward in rebuilding my career and earning a living wage so that I could make my dream of eco village life a reality.
So I set about getting a logo created, buying web space, domain name, sought out some business advice etc.
Then after all that, the web guy disappeared and that was that!
After trying to build the website myself and getting nowhere and knowing how the universe works, I figured it was not meant to be. And that was fair enough, at first I felt that I had wasted more of my precious time on earth but then I realised that it had given me some focus again, even if just for a while.
At one of the seminars I attended we talked about business ideas and I mentioned one that I have had for around 17 years. An online dating site for spiritual awake people. At the time I approached business link with it, and they just laughed in my face.
I have always been beyond the times in my thinking!
Now though it is big business, so I bought a domain name for that and tried to figure out how to go about setting that up, only to hit another brick wall.
Guess I was looking in the wrong place again. Deep breath, OK!
Then I started doing a Raw Food Nutritionist course and had the idea to create a page with all my skills instead of just the hypnotherapy, and as I am all about holistic health, traditional ways and wanted to work more with animals, plus I am Greek. So I named it after the Greek goddess of health. Some of you may remember me doing it recently.
So armed with a new passion, I started volunteering at the R.S.P.C.A and applied to join this business building team where you get all the help you need plus grants. I had to do a one minute presentation about my idea.
Unfortunately I did not get in as they said, I’m not money minded enough with wanting to set up as a non profit! So I deleted that page too.
I gave in, they say God lives a Trier but I’ve been trying for 20yrs now and my resolve is shot. My faith in my dreams though, stands strong.
Then I realised that I had my Bear Foot page, I had previously taken everything off it and was keeping it as a tribute to Grandfather Bear Heart. But felt I should start to rebuild it as this is who I am, not some programmed Muppet who has to change to be accepted. Though I do still need to earn a living, I guess some compromises are too much.
So I started to rebuild my Bear Foot page, it is still in progress with more pages to build.
Then a few months ago I got in touch with the lady who is working on turning Famagusta into the world’s first Eco city and asked if I can be of service in any way. And I got a reply! 😁
She lives in New York but would be in Cyprus in June, so we arranged to meet there this month. I told her about my dreams of building or joining an eco community and building an eco home out of tyres and bottles, and she put me in touch with a village out there.
Things seemed to be on a roll, finally! My dream is within sight, the people at the village invited me to visit with them when I’m over there next.
Wow, my dream is finally coming together, I could feel my energy begin to shift.
Then last week, the day after I confirmed with the village that I will be going over shortly, something else happened that I don’t want to go into. But means I cannot go and may not be able to go for a few years now!!
However, that door will be open for a while, so there is still hope.
I continue to have faith that this issue will be resolved and the opportunity not lost.
I guess the lesson in all this is.
No matter how hard you try or how many doors slam in your face, through all the side steps, short cuts and one way streets. Nothing is lost if you keep hold of your dream.
The quickest way to achieve your goal is not by veering off the path to try get to it indirectly. The path is the way, it may seem like an impossible way through but somewhere along the way when your faith and vision had been tested to the max, a ray of light will shine through to remind you that you are getting closer every day.
So though this may seem like the biggest of set backs that this year of roller coaster ideas and efforts has brought.
I am keeping the faith that all will end well as this has always been my ultimate dream and so according to the laws of the universe, it has already become manifest.
I was talking to a friend the other day about how illness affects our minds as she said something like, ‘I’m not getting any younger and not got much time left, when is this going to manifest, the last 5yrs of my life??’
I reminded her that I would take the next five years of my life living my dream over another five years of this any day.
Never loose your dreams no matter how hard life kicks you down. Once you loose them, is when you become dead already and actual death would be a blessing.
Hold the faith my lovelies, the butterfly must go through many transformations and pain before it is reborn into its full glory.